Thursday, October 29, 2009
yep junan. it was dumb to even think about it.
you once told yourself,
doing such a thing would totally screw up your life in ways unexpected.
seeing only what you wish to see.
placing so much impositions on myself
wasting time thinking about it
i've had enough of whatever shit this stupid feeling has brought me.
i have so much more things worth doing, worth thinking about,
so many more people worth loving.
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i love the piggybacks that random ppl like ktoh give me HAHA
it makes me feel so immature but those moments are quite enjoyable =P
and that epic moment when larry and xining threw me into the paper recycling bin today. made me stink quite abit but yea it was quite fun :D
(but no im not gna let them try that on me again)
laughing at mabel's english for the parts she wrote for the wr,
jumping to try to reach the ceiling at right wing while laughing at ws fail (though he's 175 too) while daryll was like niaoing him cos ws's can reach higher than dar,
mr ram's lecture on training, success and attitude, which seemed inspirational (:
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moving on to scream! (24th oct)
i screamed (or i would prefer to phrase it, shouted HAHA) like crazy during scream. i was not spooked out by the councillors lah i just kept getting shocked -.-"
so aft the entire thing i was like omg. freaking traumatized. and i think ppl wont understand the true reason why i shouted like crazy and knocked that hole in the wall (which is currently the resting site for athena fac outing poster HAHA)
it was the culmination of different feelings. but mainly cos scream made me feel especially frustrated at how freaked out i was. lalaaaaa
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yep. im going to get rid of that burden.
and draw that freaking clear line.
i kind of feel a little more at ease now. it's gna take time i know but yea. this will make things a whole lot better (:
Endured till
11:21 PM
With my rifle and my brothers and me~
